been a while

Lots of things have been going on ..... some good, some not so good .... Nita went down again yesterday, yes I got her up with the help of the guy next door..... I went out later and cleaned her up and gave her goodies, had a good talk .......

Toby is at the vet, his surgery last week got infected and he tried to grow back a ball, LOL. took him in with the help of a friend, hope to get him back monday ......

The weather has been fun, yesterday woke up to drizzle, and warm some clouds .... then it got sunny, then cold and cloudy again with the clouds playing on the mountains, even some stars last night..... T got some really cool pictures of the sunset last night. today is breezy and cool, chance of snow/rain tonight tomorrow.

Can't tell I'm rambling and not going where i should with this .... now where is it I should go?

Waiting for the jellybean to come out and play, she is not wanting to play, Mom is feeling the end of the pregnancy blues, and pains, wish I could make it better for her ... Getting excited to go and see all for Christmas ... This year is going to be tight, sooooooooo it is hand made things for all, expat the grandgirls, they have some bought stuff ............ If anyone is interested I'll take plywood and Yesterdays News cat litter for Christmas this year, for reals.

Last Sunday in group, B made a statement about God's anointing moving away when you fail to do something He has told you to do..... That is kinda a no-brainer until you stop to think about it on a personal level. If I feel like my prayers are not even reaching the ceiling ---- I usually know that I'm out of step with what I should be doing. But do I take imitate action to change ---- Sometimes. What about the rest of the time .....

How important is my relationship with God .............. What things am I/ have I put in His place?
Kinda reeks of idolism (computer says I've made up a word). *** The first thing God wanted his people to know was He is God and we are to look to Him with all our heart, mind and spirit. And that nothing should be put in His place. *** Stop and think about that.

What is it that occupies our day? What important matter is pressing right this moment, that it has pushed God from the forefront of your thinking to second, third or even not there place?

See how easy it is to let God slip from first to ---- The big question is **WHY** do I/you allow that to happen. It is a choice .... What is it that is more important, more pressing, more satisfying than God?

Scary answer? Deep thinking needed.

That would make a neat poster ***Deep thinking needed****

got to go back to work, have a good day.

Yikes, graves ......

I'm working a grave ....... only one, then a short turn around and back to work at 2pm. It is funny all the tricks to try to sleep during the daylight hours ..... managed to meditate most of this evening and finely fell asleep when it started to get dark.... The inside cats thought this was a wonderful idea community bedtime is just what is needed when it is cold. Got the kitten back from the vet yesterday----after @ a three week stay, he has something that caused puss to come out his right ear... the vet can't find the cause, and he started up again this morning. started feeding him softened dry food and pro biotics, will put him on silver water and herbs in the next 48 hours, need to make the tea and water!!!!! This is something that I need to stop and get into serious prayer about, what to do for him and how to stand for his healing. It is funny how sometimes we (me) let something important slide ---- Not taking the time and energy needed to go to God for direction. Spiritual laziness ..... got to be one of the deadliest habits believers fall into......
I am something for a time which requires me to purposely spend time in prayer and reading the word twice a day ..... getting it done once is no problem ---- fitting the second time in ---- gets done most of the time but requires diligence. It amazes me how daily things eat up my time, things that need to be done for shure ----- but----leave me so tired that focusing can hard.
Learning to stop and take the time needed before I become un-focusable is a daily challange, so far I seem to be slightly ahead in the possitive, however that was today. Tomarrow is another day.

Envisionment

Sometime on Friday the neighbors dogs got under my house and got one of the kittens, this is the second litter they have gone after. No I did not see them get the cat: however, they have been chasing the parents in my yard and have been rooting around where the fencing was pulled away from the porch for the last few days. Found the rest of the kittens and one very spooked mama, all ok at this point. talked to the neighbors and they said they would keep the dogs up, also talked to one of the deputies and will start documenting when the dogs are in my yard, complete with pictures .... Think I passed this test with moderate grace, OK maybe not.... I did take the dead kitten and put it on their porch! that was the least ugly of my first thoughts, using the 22 was up there at the very top ..... the dogs are attached to a 9/10 year old boy so I rethought that one quickly ..... And, yes, I took the kitten away before they walked up on their porch .......

While walking the yard looking for the other kittens I kinda looked at the property and the trailers .... It all needs help .... I have kinda sat back and been on hold till June when the other trailer will be empty and the whole place is mine alone ...... special provisions from the sales contract has the old owner occupying her trailer till then ........ She emptied a storage unit and placed some stuff at another location and some stuff on the shared front porch and in the front yard .... I've left it there and added to it myself, focusing more on the fencing than anything else. Yesterday I saw clearly .... UGH!

Now to the reason for the title, Envisionment, spell check just let me know that is not a real word ---- I'm still going to use it. Definition the birthing of and the act of pulling together something that does not exist at this time but will at some time.

The word states something to the effect of ' my people die for a lack of vision', my home and property prove that totally.

I am allowing the whole thing to not so slowly fall apart waiting for June ..... Waiting to define my vision of what I want on the whole place to look like, house, barn, studio, fields and yard ....
That is not working ..... that is something that needs to change, now .....
What is it I want and what little (for me it all has to be little) steps need to be taken to fix this place up? Clean up, take apart, put back together ..... and finish the fencing, which is what I was doing when I found the dead kitten ..............................

I like when things circle around and you know you are finished

persecution

Persecution is not the manifestation of another person's hate for you. It's a manifestation of Satan's fear of you.

That is a quote from Kenneth Copeland's daily Faith to Faith I receive e-mail daily. All that in place .....

What change in thinking will there be if this is how we look at the slights and brick walls we find ourselves facing on a daily basis? Talk about self esteem .... I am a person to be feared, not for who I am, but for who stands with me ......... When we finely allow ourselves to take that into our spirit and make it a part of who we are ..... And will allow us to focus our response where it belongs ..... to God and his protection promised to each one of us who will call upon his name in the time of trouble ...... In my mind I saw an image of my boxer pup (65lbs) who when challenged will run and hide behind me to bark. Looks silly, but it works. I will not let anything happen to him. We may look silly not reacting how the world or the physical persecutor would expect, but just look at the results ... the bully and his instrument will be put in their place by our protector.

Trust

Just stopping by before I go do stand-by at a football game, the temp should be in the mid 40 to high 30's, burrrrrrrrrrrrrr
By my front door is a note it reads: the test is not in the situation, but in how you react to the situation.

I have heard how so many Christians are distraught over the results of the elections ..... this is not our test, what is, is what we are called to do from this point on. If you searched God and acted on what you believe he wanted you to do, ie. voting. then you did what you were suppose to do.

"BUT WE PRAYED (for different results)"

Yes, but did we pray for God to be in the elections, I know the group I prayed with did, then the result must of been in God's hands, and we are right where we should be. Think about that.....
For a lot of people that will mean getting back before God and seeking direction. I truly do not know what the future holds with this new president, how the world will react to him, even how we will react to him .....
The word says we are to pray for out leaders, maybe this is a calling to prayer for some of us lazy people who would leave the praying for others ...........

Obama was not my first choice for president, however is now is my president. MY JOB is to pray God's wisdom and direction into his life and actions from this moment on ...... I believe my prayers will be answered. The word states that our hope is in the Lord, and all we have to do is call .............

Fret not, for your help comes from the Lord

Elections

Here it is the Monday before ***** THE BIG DAY***** and all's I can feel is relief, I am sooooooooo tired of all the negative talk out there, where is what the candidate can do for the people? I read somewhere the presidential race should not be totally based on the popular ideas out there, but on the impact that that person is going to have on the Supreme Court. This president will seat up to 5 persons in that court..... and they are there for life ...... these judges will have an input on my great-grand children.......... I believe my vote will count, I've already exercised that right (why wait, I didn't have to wait in line). It should be interesting to see how things fall in the next 24-48 hours.... with the possibility of protesting the results, Nov 17 is the final date ........ sure be glad when this is a done deal....... I'm ready to go home, Good luck with with your choices ...................

answered prayer

I love the weekend ..... understand this is not my weekend, I work a shift so my weekend comes mid week for most of the world, this is a time where people try to relax and have a good time. I work in a county sheriff dept ---dispatching .... I also run EMS ..... Sooooooooooooo think about it, if people are having fun and not getting into trouble, I'm ok with that....

Spent the last week watching Nita. Jesse hurt her bad last week and the old lady took a few days to work out the sore, I did get her a seprate pen built and she will not share a pen or pasture with jesse again, ever. Was hoping that Jesse's attitude was hormones and a little copper would fix things, WRONG. Got the ladies at the bookmobile looking for a book on herbs and horses, hope to find something in that.

As I said I spent a lot of time watching Nita, which translates to PRAYING, which causes thinking..... Guess it was Monday, there were a couple of animal issues here at work, one of my co workers little (less than 3lbs) dog got lost, a cool dog at the shelter was facing being put down unless the owner was found, one of the guy's dog was bitten by something and was real sick, then there was Nita...... I went home that night and spent some good time with the Lord...... the end result ..... Wed the little dog came home skinnier than before but ok, the owners of the dog were found, and Nita is moving and eating almost like before, the other dog is still under the weather, and going to the vet on Monday. She is 14yo and been with out the use of her back end for quite a while. The Point, I needed answered prayer in my life, I needed God to say he is listening to me and I'm where I should be at the present...... This week (in the animal realm) God let me know He is there and listening. Don't give up on Pepper yet, I haven't. As some of you know I believe in geriatric animals and their amazing ability to keep on going.

What is it that happens when we pray and do not see the immediate results of change? That is where we have to choose to believe that prayers are truth and have the very real ability to change a situation. To do otherwise is to null and void the time and energy used in the original asking. Thinking back, I do not remember a whole lot of teaching on the hanging on to part of praying, could be because I come out of the Episcopal tradition, and well that should of been covered in Sunday School or at the very least conformation class..... might of been, I do not remember. What little teaching I did get I got from some good teachers, and I am extremely thankful. One called it 'bull-dog faith', the kind that attaches itself to something and does not let go. 'Speaking the Word' over a situation, 'Standing In Faith', all of these terms denote some kind of action on the part of the one believing, and depending on the situation some hard work.

Does prayer always work? YES! Our problem is that we sometimes give up on God before He gets the chance to work. And even better, we are not asking................ or are asking outside of the conditions where prayer is acceptable, and that my friend opens a whole new door......

In defence of the Episcopal Church, the tenants of their faith are awesome, they are not always taught, and not always followed, as with everything else in life ...... taking directions are the option of the person needing them .... out there but not always wanted...............